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王启明：luck i am still alive
I never use English to write a diary ever since my 14 years old.
How time flies.
It reminds me of my parents at their marriage age.
They were just like current me and her, at the age when we can't even take care of ourselves. We don't even have our life in normal way and we have to take raising a baby into consideration. My daily life still is filled out with video games, new high-tec items, suddenly a baby gets in my way!
I think I have a image of what my parents had had. They had a wonderful dream, their own goal, their own happy times, their own life pace, their free time.
But all good things vanished because the coming of me. They didn't have time for a walk in the park as I was crying in the bedroom, they didn’t go to the movie as I was waiting for milk which was a big cost even then, they didn’t have a chance to enjoy a TV show just because I was there! My mom even attended a college at her 30s,though she didn’t manage to finish it cause raising me is her theme always.)
As I grew up, what i brought them is anger, anxious and let us say, a kind of hope. Iwas, am and will be the reborn of themselves and they did everything they could to feed me, to educate me, to make me like a real man who can realize their unfinished dreams. Now they are old, are accused of not understanding current society problems and lack of motivations. I now know that i am wrong. They had their dreams before, perhaps even bigger than ours, but all ruined because of us.
Like Jesus said, people all are sin. They are coming to this world to compensate their wrong doings.
Right now, I am 500 miles away from home. I cant sing but I feel like sin. I miss them and want to do everything to make up what we did before, sometimes we stupidly did something on purpose just to raise their anger! How suck I was! Right now, I am still struggling for life, can rarely raise my girl friend (who devotes her best time to me but received nothing in material),not to mention raise a baby!
I am guilty but crying doesn’t make any sense.
I hereby promise :I will be home before my 30 years old, when they reach their 60s.I will be with you, my dear parents, forever and I just hope life is fine, your health is fine, your diet is fine, no matter how much money I make.
For me, a good son and a good husband is much more worth well than being a good money maker.
God bless you, my dear mom and dad.

rondtang：英语太捧拉

della815：haha.why every man all have the sociate ambition

della815：why can't he choose both,why he don't know i need him

王启明：thanks rondtang !
della815
different ppl have different opinions towards life .i respect others'attitude and enjoy my own one.
best wishes for you to have a good boy who cares ,loves you ,better with a promising career.

lira56：wow,nice writing,i hope i will do that like u.

miffyli：LZ,your english is so good,envying.

道可道9非常道：LZ乖,真是个懂事的孩子!你外语这么好,害得我都不敢用英语发言啦!:P

lylsucceed：看完全篇..暴:L

impk：great article

binin：羡慕你的英语

陪你看世界：god bless you and your family
best wishes

zhfzjb：you were ,are, and will enjoy a wonderful life
success just show appreciation for someone who have huge dream like you ,take your heart into everything , you will get what you want at the very end.
give you best wishes!

liao219712：good luck and best wishes for you and your family

王启明：thanks all