journeyonthekaleidos

szparon：journey on the kaleidoscopic world
Long time ,I have been tracking the significanceon the kalerdoscopic world ,the pursuit of happiness ,broadly speaking ,it refers to the satisfactory lifeand for limited sense, it can be explained into good balance between different feelings(family,love and friendship),work or study and physical condition.what if human failed to coordinate these kind of ligament ,by sequence ,sense of disappointed,annoyed ,upset ,bitterness and sadness are following.Nobody borned to be a freak ,who acts opposite to the behavior of majority manbeing do.Aren't there somebody wants to commit criminal and got imprioson or commi suicide ignoranceof hurts imposed on his/her mind and body,definitely ,we can say no to all of the above doubts.
such emotions as bitterness ,grievanceand compassion for many poor humans also including myselfare filled even soaked my wearing and tiring body and mind.As time passes day by day ,I come to know more about responsibility and morality. 20 years ago ,we have accepted diversifiedcare and love,while at presentat -the very transition periodwe have to return all of them by rotation ,which is publically considered as the morality .welearned to fulfill our filial duty to our parent,wehave to learn how to love someone and crafty and sharply enough to exempt from deceiveness ,we have to learn how to face all kinds of pressure from society .In fact ,the merely goal for us is to play a good role as an ordinary person and lead an ordinary life while it proves to be an illusion ,which can never be achived in sequence of complicated world presented before us.when I was young ,I chose to cry loudly to emit my grevanceand now I prefer to moist my eyes and tears feel down from my cheek silently and never been seen by others.I gradually learn that this can be taken as the only right to enjoy my happiness at will.
I don't complain the unfairness the god render me any more no matter how hard the life imposed on me and how bad my physical mechanism becomes,and Iam deeply in realise of how important to balance the loss and gaining, the cause and results,which makes me more independentand mature as well as more weary .I can distinguish what I can do from what I can't at the scope of my cognition,which also brews my stubborn characteristics .what I determined to dowon't be hampered by others ideas and never make room for conflicting ideasimposed on my world eventhough you are the dearest pepole for me.As the saying goes"Never come back until there is a dead end"but my belief is what if one day I was trapped into a dead dead,I may choose no back or bearing without reluctance.
This is the journey in my 1/3 course of life and wish good luck for everyone's understanding and respect of my choice no matter who you are and what you will be.